Thoughts

I am sitting at my dining room/kitchen table while my kids do them. I have an app on my phone watching a movie just to kill time. I often find my mind wondering to crazy things all the time when I am doing this. Today my mind keeps going to the way things are in today's society. I'll be 41 in a week and things have changed so drastically since I was a kid that it is insane. I live in a small town and the atmosphere and just overall feeling has changed so much over time it feels like a different town. Don't get me wrong I know that things change as time goes on, but this town is not the same at all. City people have moved up here for the "country life" and are slowly changing our small down to more of a city feeling where you walk down the street and don't really know anyone anymore. I miss the days that you could let your kids go walk town and know they would be fine because everyone knew everyone and would watch out for each other. Now there are kidnappings happening here and close by, you have older kids that are touching inappropriately with younger kids, businesses that are insane and we don't know anyone. It's totally different. I would love to be able to drop my kids off and town or let them ride their bikes to town and hang out with friends and not have to stress things as I do. My anxiety is raising just raising typing about all of this. What happened to the small towns? Is it just here that has changed, have other small towns had the same things happen there? Time is just insane on how it seems to go by so fast and life changes for what we all hope is the best, but something tells me it may not be. Just going to keep on fighting the good fight and pushing through this thing we call life.